Near Death Experience

It is now 6:17am in Perth and I’m grateful that I was able to wake up this morning and put my feet down on our carpet floor. This morning is not a normal day in the past, today I cherish more that I live. The reason is that I experience a life threatening situation last night for the first time in my life. I had a severe shortness of breath, a regular symptom that I unfortunately developed about a year ago due to my stressful environment trying to settle and survive in a new country. Ever since I have had small anxiety attacks and shortness of breath whenever I am agitated if things don’t go as planned or sudden unexpected incidents that are out of my control.

I was reading to my daughter her usual bed time stories and suddenly felt difficult to breath and continue the next sentence. Breathing became a struggle for me last night and I could hardly catch the next breath. Started to feel dizzy and numbness in my head. My daughter gave me a few strokes to my back with her tiny little hands but it didn't help as I was gasping for air. I stepped outside our tiny balcony to catch some fresh cool air and slow down my breathing. I also needed to stop thinking of anything as a slight stir in my mind made the condition worse. It was as if I was transported to a planet where there is limited or oxygen at all. Thankfully after a while of soothing my emotion that it helped and I managed to calm down after a good one hour or so.

I realize for the first time that life is just one breath away, that the potential of me losing that one breath is very real. It occurred to me then that I should worry less next time and 'seriously' take things not so seriously if that makes sense! It is because if I don't stop worry, it will soon kill me and it is no joke at all. That I must be in control of my thought and be positive. Worry causes anxiety causes breathing difficulties causes heart attack. We all have limited time in this world and it's time to assess our health more seriously.

Life is so fragile, Paul Walker recently died at 40 and I’m of the same age. Today, we all live again and it’s time to cherish everything you have around you!